Hurm.... all around us.. people keep talking.. thou for someone lives maybe the end for them.. it has never been the same.. 2010 has just reached 20 odd days.. yet a lot happend.. and maybe.. its a good start or is it a bad one... I have asked myself the same question everyday... is it worth fighting for an issues that's just impossibly heart-breaking to resolve? and am I strong enough to face the facts that.. somehow... things are not always what I've asked for and for some reason... maybe.. this is the test...  "The Test'.. But I overcome the issues, and the fact that , I changed because of that, would be the second things on my head.... I need the change and I know I can change... Do we really need a reason to change? 

Hancurnya hati aku.. rupanya minyak yang selama hari ini aku tatang penuh... rupanya memercik... mencederakan aku... mengotorkan aku...Lukanya hati aku... kalaulah aku tahu... ini jadinya hidup yang aku dambakan.. dengan usia percintaaan 10tahun yang aku korbankan.... mungkin... aku tak pilih jalan ini dan buat keputusan yang salah.. Ya Allah... Kau kuatkanlah imanku.. kau tetapkanlah hati aku... kau jauhkan lah aku dari kekecewaan yang tak dapat aku tanggung lagi... Kau selamatkan lah aku dari pemikiran yang memudaratkan aku... Aku tak kuat mengharungi dugaan ini... tapi aku tahu,.... kau cuma menguji aku setakat kemampuan ku...... Aku hambanya yang selalu alpa... dan lupa....  Esok, aku perlu ke Immigration dan renew passport aku.. and move on... mungkin sekarang waktu terbaik untuk aku kejar cita-cita... kerana cinta.. telah menghampakan ku.... it let me down... and i had to move on.. and let time heals the wounds..... Because.. my soul is wounded and needed serious healing... Cita-cita, here i come for you.. but I'm sorry love... i think i have to say goodbye to u know... your teach me about live... being loved.. and suffers at the same time... i knew it all along, that its not a bed of roses... i knew it full of thorns.. and i knew i wil get hurt along the way.... flying high above the sky... may this journey and capturizing the dreams going smooth and didnt let me down....for now.. farewell to all that hurts and painful.... it really teaches me to be matured and to act like an adult...