I am still mourning

I dont know why sampai sekarang nih... i am still mourning for the lost .. masa tumpah darah tuh.. although deep down bersyukur dengan hikmah allah taa'la berikan to be strong and courages till now... perasaan sedih tuh tetap tak dpt dibendung... setiap kali teringat mesti bercucuran air mata....
Yes, allah lebih tahu ...dgn kehilang itu, jugak.. people that i loved really showed me that they cares... walaupun ade bunyi-bunyi sumbang dari beberapa sudut yang kurang sedap di dengar... i overcome it...
hubby? not so much... dia mcm tak bleh terima kenyataan.. n he was upset... but now... we're fine... i guess... atleast we realise that we mourn for the losses...
i keep telling myself "pull yourself together , will ya"..... its hard,... dan kesakitannya.. tuhan saja yg tahu... lepas tumpah darah tuh kerap sgt sakit pinggang... perut pedih mencucuk-cucuk,...
But it's time to move on...
Life's not always be on your side... and
never consider yourself so lucky,..
b'cos ..
Tommorow.... you may never know..
let it unfold...

... i mourn for your losts.....